Hello again

Sorry that I keep doing this.

Posting one day then don't post at all.

Don't feel neglected, my journal feels the same way.

I think it cries on my bookshelf at night.

Oh, well. Probably no one even reading this, right? It's okay. No one listens to me in real life, 'cept Demon, so I don't expect anyone on the internet to do the same.

Unless they're some really really desperate internet predators. Then they pretend to listen to ya about how long it takes, until the kid agrees to meet them somewhere.
I think I met one once.

Some guy claiming to have girlfriend problems, and when I kind of help him, he asks for my phone number so we could talk in 'real person.'

I'm not as stupid as some would say. I told him no way and blocked him.
Who knows, he COULD have been a regular teen, but you can't trust people like you used to.
Too many have abused the power, so now we all have to fear for the rest of our lives if the people we talk to are who they say they are.

Who knows?
I don't.
Would love to meet the person who does, though.
(okay, yeah, that probably goes against all of what I just typed, but what the heck?)

Spring break for me went by superfast.

Now I'm sad that it's gone, but am partially ready to go back to the school.
It's not as bad as everyone thinks, personally I like to get out of the house for anything now a days.
But that's just me.
I'm an outcast, come on.

It's also Easter today.
I'm thinking of changing it to Martyr Day.
Jesus technically was a martyr, though I doubt any other martyr came back from the dead on the third day after their death.
Remember, the terrorists of 9, 11 were martyr's too.

Gives ya either a reason to hate me or something to think about.

Just my thoughts. Who are you to judge?
No one, that's who.

I wonder what Jesus' thoughts were when he was up on that cross.
"Get me down from here!" would have been mine, but who knows. Maybe he really was praying inside his head to get past the pain of the nails driven into his hands and feet. What, like, "Father help me!" or "Forgive them!"

Who can tell me for sure?
No one.

I wonder if he did hold any grudges against the soldiers that mocked him by putting the thorny crown on his head, and stabbing his side and legs with a spear.

Demon is athiest.
He says that Jesus Christ was just a martyr who had a lot of "miracles" up his sleeve. End of story.

I don't believe that. I am a Christian, but sometimes I do wish I could believe easier than what I am. I know that that probably doesn't make me a very good Christian, but I can't help it.
I wish I could, but I can't.

Evidence would be better for me, but I guess the video recorder wasn't invented that long ago.

Oh, well.

Happy Easter.

-Angel