Romance....something I want now

It's hard to have to live without your soulmate.
Some of you may know what it's like.

Others, unfortunately, may lead a carefree life of three-four boyfriends/girlfriends every week.

Screw you.


It sucks to see people waste something that could be beautiful,
but they waste it without knowing which makes me disgusted.

There's too many people in my school like that. Too many people in the world like that.

You see girls having sex and proud of it when they know they're not planning on marrying that guy,
not even doing it for love. Same with guys.

Makes me sick.

I would give anything to live closer to Demon.
To be able to see him more than just once every two weeks.
It gets too hard sometimes, and I wake up from a dream, a dream where I find myself in his arms, and he holds me as if he's really there. Then I simply open my eyes as my alarm is blaring to wake me up for school, and I trudge out of bed from what seemed so real, but then I realize it never happened.

Sometimes I feel like crying about it. Which I know sounds babyish and everything, and I do try not to, but sometimes it just aches too much without him.

Some people may be saying, "Why don't you break up with him and get with someone else who's at your school?"
Well, that would only make it worse.
I'm married to Demon, and if I can't go without him for two weeks without hurting, going without him for the rest of my life would kill me.

According to him, if he speaks the truth, it would kill him in an instant.

Besides, there can't be anyone else.
If you've read my last chapter or two, you're probably wondering about my situation with Bookie.
Well, I had a dream last night. It was REALLY weird.

I don't know where we were, it seemed like a dark room with a mirror, and there were lights around the edge of the mirror like in dressing rooms. Bookie was beside me, I was looking in the mirror, and he was looking at me. He started giving me small kisses on the head and cheek. Nowhere on the lips.
The thing was, I didn't like it. Really, I was just horrorfied and shocked. But I couldn't find myself to push him away.
Then, I was in my room, with Demon. He started kissing me passionately on the lips, and I put my arms around his neck as he wrapped his around my waist. I felt the burning sensation in my chest as we kissed.

I guess this means that Demon wins my heart? He had already won in any rate.

My friend, Ash, she gets on my nerves too much.
Always complaining when her bf isn't at school, or he simply is late, and she says how miserable she is when he's not there.
Guess what, Ash? I don't really give a shit if the guy you see everyday is simply not there to hold your hand. I just don't. Don't know why, though.

All day I was imagining Demon beside me, my head leaned on his shoulder, one of his arms around me.

I just saw a video on youtube that was about the book Twilight's movie that's coming out!
Twilight is super awesome! A vampire romance. I thought the actors were well chosen, also.

I wonder how Maximum ride will be?
If you don't know, that's another book that's also cool, but the romance is a little dead in it.

Both the characters that supposedly like each other are idiots when it comes to the subject.
One keeps pushing away when she KNOWS she loves him, and the other won't even mention his feelings towards her. I'm sorry, no offense, but they need to either step it up, or leave it alone because it's not healthy to do otherwise.

Especially since they're still the same way after FOUR books.

Well, that's enough for me tonight.

TTYL