Crap

I have a problem.

Some of you may say it's nothing, others may think what I'm thinking:
That it's a BIG problem.

I think one of my best friends, one of my only best friends that I can be around
without getting angry, likes me...a little too much.

His name is, er, we'll just call him Bookie.
He likes to read a little more than I do.

So anyway, for a while me and Demon
and another girl, Beck, another best friend, suspect he likes me.

Beck says it's for sure, I hope it's not,
and Demon wants to kill him.

Bookie's my friend, kind of like an annoying brother,
and he does a lot for me that I appreciate.
He reads my story, always says it's great, and now
he's going to help me edit it.

That means a lot to me.
For one thing, editing a novel is long and hard.
I'm not so good at grading other kids papers
none the less an entire story!

He also helps me find books to read next,
he's letting me borrow books that he has checked out at our town's library,
books I could NOT find.

A while back, we were talking about my story.
My story is over me and Demon.
But in a sort of renaissance time and more of a fantasy style.

This is what we were talking about one day in class:

(we were talking about my prayer beads)
Me: Yeah, someone hates these things.
Bookie: Who?
Me: My boyfriend, he's kind of a demon and hates how my mom gave them to me.
Bookie: So where are your wings?
Me: Huh?
Bookie: Your wings? Your story?
Me: oh...*blushes from emberassment* Yeah, the story's kind of based on that.
Bookie: I figured. Well, it's a good thing the story's not real, or I'd be jealous and would never be able to see you again.
Me: ..........*takes hard shot of cola*...............

I think that's how it went down.

Today, we talked a lot, and he winked at me.
I'm really hoping he's just a big winker and winks at everyone.
If not, I'm in trouble.

I don't hate Bookie for doing those things, but I really just hope
that he DOESN'T like me.
Bad things happened the last time something like this went down.
Me and my old ex, we were best friends once upon a time.
Then, after it was over in just a week, we hated each other.
We talked a little bit before he moved away, but our friendship was scarred severely.

I don't want to lose another best friend.
Especially not Bookie. He's too good a friend to lose.

But remember, I only like him AS A FRIEND.
I'm pledged and married to Demon.
We already made our vows to each other, and I tend to keep mine.
There can be no one else.