Sunday Nights

Usually there's SUPPOSED to be youth on Sunday nights but ever since the youth fell apart and the so called youth leaders quit showing up to church completely, it's kinda been just gone and dead.

Kind of sad, huh?

The weekend kind of sucked and went by fast.
Today was the only day that felt like a free day. Yesterday was the funeral, and then we had to go out of town to a two-hour away city that the burial was held in. Well, that city was next to my demon's town where he was visiting and staying with his grandparents.
He first wanted to come to the burial to be with me, then we were given the option for me to just go over there.
I just went over there, which I'm glad I chose that. I feel better from last week which was really crappy just from seeing Demon. That's just how he mellows me out.

We watched a horror movie, which wasn't as good as it's hyped up to be, and just sat around.
It felt so good to be in his arms again. I wished I was in his arms now.
Other than his little five year old cousin trying to sneak in the whole time, it was good.
Don't get me wrong, I adore her and everything, but sometimes she acts as if she's jealous of me. Which is alright, I mean Demon's more like her older brother than just a cousin with her being an only child and all.

Though it was like 2 1/2 hours, it still seemed really short, and I was missing him from when we were hugging goodbye.

I still talked to him that night, and finally we said our goodbye's at about 2:30 in the morning. He had to get on the road back to his college town, and I basically had nothing to wake up for, but was still worn out.

Today was just blah, I did my school work, practiced the flute, picked up my room (I can't stand for it to be messy), and spent some time with my mom.

Okay, this has been bothering me a lot today and I need youz guyz advice.
I feel horrible for blocking a friend off of myspace just recently, but there's nothing I can do.
He wasn't really a friend, but just an aquantance, really.

He's 24, making him some years older than me, and Demon didn't like that.
Demon said that he really didn't get a good vibe by just looking at his picture, and that he wanted me to stop talking to him. I said no because I"m just that stubborn. But the friend says that he wanted to say something about me but wanted to call me and tell me over the phone. I told him no, and when Demon found out he got REALLY hurt and mad that I was still talking to him. Demon wanted me to block him and to stop talking to him, and I finally gave in.

Not because of his begging but because I really did hurt him by even trying to hide it from him.
The reason why I hid it was because I thought that if I knew what my friend was trying to say, I could detect whether I SHOULD stop talking to him or not. That was a mistake.
Demon was hurt, it was my fault, and I had no choice but to stop the messages.

What was worse is that the friend said he understood, but only wanted to message me to check up on a friend. (this friend is out of state)
Problem was, I didn't say I was blocking him. Now I have him blocked and I'm afraid that I've hurt him by just doing that.
Only thing is, I don't want to hurt my demon in the proccess.

If anyone can help, please comment!


Back to the Sunday nights and away from the life drama....

It's just one of those Sunday nights where you're aware of school the next day, but you couldn't care less.
For all of you who dread Mondays but are in no extra activities that requires practices: shove off!
I have band practice tomorrow for only a couple of hours, but sometimes I wish to just get on the morning bus, go to school, get on the bus again, and just come home from the first day of the week.
Well, I get to go home for an hour and a half, but I'd like to go home and STAY home. Ya know?
I just have to remind myself that a couple of hours isn't as bad as our marching band practices from earlier this year which were 4 hours.

And to not bring a watch. If you bring a watch to practice, you'll be looking at it every five minutes.
That's why I get through the practice as much as I can, THEN look at a watch.

Then for Tuesday I have an early morning practice which isn't bad, just nerve racking at times.
The sectional is only for flutes with the main director, and there's only three of us, so we have less of a chance of screwing up. Even though I have my off days sometimes causing the director to raise an eyebrow at me from time to time.

Well, I better wrap this thing up.
Demon should be calling me now.

I'll type up later

-Angel